Let me be the first to say Happy Birthday! I know you don’t like celebrating your birthday loudly, only preferring to celebrate it in secret with only the handful of people who actually *know* when your birthday is and not by using Facebook, but I just thought that hey, maybe you’ll need this once that day arrives. Anyway.
I’m currently writing this on a certain day in December. I’m tired, sleepy, and itching to game. But before I start gaming myself to sleep, I honestly want to ask you something.
Are you happy?
Now, I don’t mean this as an insult or as a means to make you feel horrible, as you sometimes do to yourself, but seriously, myself. Are you happy with your life? Are you content with whatever it is that you are doing right now? Judging from the fact that it’s on a Sunday, I’m guessing you’re tweeting for your job or setting up the streaming (whose quality I hope has improved by now) in your church, probably people are greeting you left and right and it depends on your life decisions whether you reply or not…
Are you happy?
Right now, as you will probably remember, you were hitting a rough patch, in my case… I’m in it. A rough patch in school, in the house, in relationships… You will probably remember the smiles and the frowns and all the emotions that I am currently going through. You remember them, most likely, as a fond or distant memory. As for me though, I’m experiencing them…
A lot has happened this 2014. Graduation, work, play, relationships… Most of this year was fun. There were sad times, tiring times. Moments you want to remember for all eternity and moments you want to forget. Moments that changed you for the better… And as much as I hate to admit it, the moments that may have made you a bit worse… Now I’m not pointing any fingers, but I remember them like it was yesterday. Seeing how this is the last month of the year too, I was hit with an uncertainty that led me to ask you that question.
Are you happy?
I myself, at the moment, do not know if I am. There are a lot of things going on with my life right now that, hopefully, has been resolved by the time you read this. There are a lot of things that are going on that, hopefully, you will be able to move on from. And there is a lot of incoming events in the new year that, hopefully, you will be able to get through with relative ease. And as I watch the days go by leading to the new year… I really want to know.
Are you happy?
Rather… I think I should change the question. Happiness is fleeting. You can be happy one moment, and pissed the next and in the same way, you can be so mad one moment, then be happy right after. I’ll instead ask another question that hopefully you also know the answer to, even if a little.
Are you content with your life, myself? I know it’s still to early, but I’m asking you still. Are you content with your life up to this point? Are you content with all that has happened? All that you’ve done? Are you content with the events of the past year? Content with the friendships, the love, the circumstances leading to various things happening. Are you content, my friend?
Are you content with the things that are going on around you? Are you content with the people you have surrounded yourself with? Are you content with your friends, your acquaintances or the people close to your heart? Are you content with your belongings, your progress in games, or your grades so far?
Because honestly, right now, as I am writing this…..
I don’t know if I am.
I don’t know if I am content with anything. The only part of my life I am sure I am content about is my faith in God and my family but other than that? I’m not so sure anymore.
I’m not pointing any fingers or naming any names, but in all honesty? I don’t know if I am content.
Something just feels missing. Something feels mismatched right now. Something feels so… I don’t know…
I don’t know if I am content.
So I can only pray you are.
Here’s my tips for you, my friend.
Be happy with what you have. Don’t go looking for a better game or a better book when you yourself still have a backlog of games and books. Same goes for clothes, food, girls, etc. Don’t go looking for more than you can handle.
Be prepared for anything. It’s another twelve months of fun and hardships. That’s one of the perks of having your birthday on this month, I guess. You get to start off the year with your birthday, and I don’t know why, but it gives me this sort of excitement for what the year is preparing for me.
Always, always, *always* be at your best every single day this year because honestly? Every day could be your last on this world. I know where you’re going, but wouldn’t it suck if something bad while you still had something you wanted to do? Don’t hesitate, just do it, whatever the heck that is.
And finally… Talk to the people that you know will listen to you. That would be God, your family, and your friends. If you somehow have an AI who is capable of passing the Turing test when you read this, then talk to him too. It helps a lot to let things out and not bottle them up. Trust me, I know how that feels.
I pray and hope that when you read this, you will be as content as life allows you to be. I pray and hope that at that point of your life, you will find the contentment and the happiness that was meant for you for that year.
Looking forward to hearing what you think of this letter when you read it!
With all the joy and love in the world,
P.S. Remember to write another one for next, next year and remember this: Finish all your games before buying new ones. Seriously, your backlog is so big already.